*sigh* I am “feeling” compelled to type- and so I shall. I am having a few “thoughts” that I wanted to share with you, dear reader(s)- those mysterious ones, and friends. I DID find a five leafed clover this morning. Kinda neat! Umm.. if you have the HTML code, I plopped it in your comment this morning.. and if I couldn’t (and you wish to view it) please let me know. I am a little pressed for time, because I curiously was unable to sleep last night.. perhaps due to having NINETEEN (the most so far, ever!) kids at my program yesterday- OR.. it was the dream I had. AND- those silly past memories that sometimes catch me unaware. I dreamed that someone gave me a golden harp.. and I was REALLY sort of “annoyed” when I woke up!! *LOL* A little frustrated, as well. I am SO not musically inclined, although I dearly L-O-V-E to listen to some types of music.

This particular dream caused me to “travel back in time” to my… “less-than-nurturing” childhood life- and a particular memory. I remember very vividly one room in my childhood home, that my brother and myself were reliquated to occupying.. at ALL times- unless given specific permission from our parents to leave it. This room contained.. a couch, two lamps (one at each end of the couch- of which, the left-hand side was mine).. AND?? A piano. A gorgeously crafted black Steinway. Its presence in the room was quite curious to me, because NOBODY was allowed to TOUCH it!! Nobody EVER played it- ever. WHY was it there?? I really have NO clue.

I remember one day, I was particularly curious (and.. brave!). There was nobody else in the house- so I decided to quietly lift and slide the piano key cover back.. to expose those gloriously gleaming, and aesthetically pleasing black and white keys. I just was CRAVING to hear the sounds that might possibly come from this piano!! So. I began to “plunk” away, not knowing what I was doing.. I was simply appreciating the various sounds. Unbenownst to me, my.. mother.. had come into the house, and was standing in the room. I can STILL remember the horrible look of extreme anger upon her face- and I remember thinking to myself, “Uh oh.. this is not going to be good.”. I was right. It wasn’t.

For a very, very, v-e-r-y long time afterwards, I was unable to listen to ANY music coming from a piano- no matter what the melody or lyrics. It caused me to become physically ill- and was extraordinarily distasteful to me. GREAT and unbelievably tragic feelings of.. dread and endless hopelessness would cover me in waves.

There’s a point in my sharing.. please hang in there with me. After many years of having this peculiarly destructive reaction to piano music- I decided to.. actively think about how I could change this visceral reaction that I was having e-v-e-r-y time I was hearing the music of a piano. After all, I told myself.. “It’s NOT the piano itself that was mean.. it was.. a PERSON.”. And?? So- I changed my perception into something that is NOW a very joyous and pleasurable event, when I am hearing some piano music that truly resonates within my very heart and soul. People CAN change!! When they are able to have that little sparkle of “self- actualization” that.. perhaps they are “missing out, or.. mis- interpreting” something in life. Whatever the “something” is, totally depends upon the individual.

I AM so totally grateful, AND immeasurably happy to be ABLE to listen to piano music without any of those horrible “past memories that were wrapped in black ribbons of hopelessness and fear”. Truly, I am. I L-O-V-E listening- as (to me) sometimes I think of it as.. lullabies that I never received- but am now able to appreciate. Life IS good.. sometimes it is BETTER than merely “good”.. it can be downright miraculous!

I did find a FIVE leafed clover this morning, along with my usual 4- leafed ones. Yep, I took a picture (of ALL of my findings this morning!).. along with THIS one, which I am wanting to share with you, dear reader(s). It is evidence that.. a small hurricane named Tooey.. blasted through my living room this morning- whilst I was asleep. As I am planning on making tamales (with banana leaves- not corn!), I am.. HOPING that there is someone who is.. liking to possibly CLEAN?? Such are the events and ponderings.. of MY life.. being lived in the tone of “G”. *LOL* Oooohhhh yeah! Umm, also? “Happy Sparkle Thoughts” of an infinite amount of positive energies, LOVE, encouragement, and genuine kindness as you go about your day and evening.
Here’s the evidence of “Hurricane Tooey”, with.. Bella gazing longingly out the sliding glass door- wanting to “play with HER squirrel”! Life IS pretty fun for me. I guess it’s all a matter of perception.

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by Kindness and Caring that is called Sue